I'M BACK AND I BROUGHT SOME USELESS ART I'M SO STUPID SMART, FINDING MY GROOVE IS HARD I MIGHT BE TOO FAR GONE RIDING ON SHOOTING STAR I'M LOOKING FOR THAT GIRL FROM SPACE SHE CAME & LEFT & TOOK MY HEART WITH HER LETS PAINT SOME DARK PICTURES THE PLOT'S THICKER THAN BLOOD THE PAGES RIPPED FROM OUR SCRIPTURES I NUMB MY FACE WITH HARD LIQUOR CAUSE IT KNOCKS ME OUT QUICKER KEEP MY EYES TINTED COME FLY WITH ME WE CAN LISTEN TO SOME TRIBE R.I.P. TO PHIFE DIGGY DOG CAN I KICK IT YALL? EVEN IF I MISS AND FALL, I TRIED TO HIT THE BALL AND SHE'S INTO THAT EFFORT OR WHATEVER AMBITION AND SOME OTHER STUFF I HAVEN'T HAD EVER BUT WE ENDED UP GETTING ALONG FINE SHE CAME MID-SUMMER, THEN SHE LEFT IN THE FALL FELT LIKE A LONG TIME CLASSIC CASE OF RIGHT PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME AND THAT'S MY FAULT SO THE BLAME IS ALL MINE AND I CAN ADMIT THAT BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I THINK THAT IT'S ALRIGHT WE WEREN'T LOST, WE WERE TRAVELING CREATIVELY ON BASICALLY THE ABSOLUTE WORTH PATH FROM A TO Z BABY PLEASE!! STAY WITH ME MAYBE WE CAN TAKE A BREAK A DAY? A WEEK? A COUPLE MONTHS? HOWEVER MANY YEARS IT TAKES TO MAKE YOU SEE I'M CRAZY ABOUT YOU SHE SAID "CLEARLY" I LAUGHED AS IF I THINK THAT THAT'S ENDEARING CAUSE I'M TRASH AT SHOWING FEELINGS SHE LEFT IMMEDIATELY I WATCHED HER FLY AWAY THROUGH THAT GAPING HOLE IN THE CEILING DON'T MAKE A SOUND LETS FIND A NICE ROOFTOP & STARE THE CONSTELLATIONS DOWN UNTIL THE SKY'S VACANT FOR THE TAKING WE CAN MAKE IT OURS REARRANGE THE STARS

DEEP UNDERWATER LAUGHING BUBBLES UP LAUGH WITH ME WHILE I'M NUMB ENOUGH TO HAVE FUN WITH YOU CONFUSION AND AQUATIC LOVE USE ME TIL I'M ALL USED UP AND PUSH MY HEAD DOWN CONDITIONS ARE CRITICAL YOU'VE PULLED US APART WITH INDIFFERENCE I'VE NOTICED YOUR LOVE COMES IN INTERVALS WHAT'S WITH THE DISTANCE? I MUST HAVE MISSED IT WHAT DECISION WAS MADE? WHEN SUDDENLY YOU WASN'T FEELING THE SAME AND I'M FEELING ASHAMED THAT I CALLED YOU SIGNIFICANT WHEN YOU NEVER WANTED ME ANYWAY I SUSPECT THAT YOU WANTED ATTENTION AND I UNDERSTAND THAT PERSPECTIVE I'VE BEEN THAT WAY BUT I KNOW FOR SURE I REGRET PUTTING OTHERS AT STAKE AND THEN RUNNING AWAY CAUSE IT GOT TO BE A BIT TOO MUCH TO TAKE BUT IT'S OUT OF CONTROL CAUSE YOU LET IT I HOPE THAT YOU'LL GET IT TOGETHER YOU KNOW WHY YOU DID IT YOU'RE SELFISH YOU KNOW IT YOU JUST CAN'T HELP IT AND I GET THAT BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I HAVE TO FORGIVE THAT I WON'T BE YOUR FIVE MINUTE BREAK FOR A SMOKE AND I WON'T BE RE-LIT WHEN YOU GET BACK NO MORE CAUSE I'M BORED OF THAT ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AND THEN OFF AND THEN ON AGAIN ALL OF THAT EITHER YOU CARE OR YOU DON'T IF YOU WANNA CONFUSE ME THEN YOU CAN GET LOST WITH THAT F L C L YOU KNOW WHAT IT STANDS FOR FORCED LOVE CAUSES LUST CAUSE LOVE'S NOT AN INTIMATE NIGHT AND HUNCH IT'S MORE LIKE A KNIFE IN YOUR GUTS AND YOU TASTE BLOOD LIKE SNORTING LINES OF SPACE DUST IT'S MADE UP I'LL HAVE THEM VIOLINS PLAYIN FOR YOU GIRL YES! THEY'RE PLAYING FOR YOU! MELANCHOLY MELODIES, JUST THE WAY YOU'RE USED TO SAD GIRL, I WISH I COULD GET THROUGH TO YOU WITH MY STUPID CONFUSING UNDERWATER MUSICALS

I GOT TOO HIGH PROBABLY I LIE FLAT ON THE FLOOR SO WE CAN SEE EYE TO EYE AND SPEAK PROPERLY, MY CONFIDANT AND MY SOLACE IN MY TIME OF NEED HE'S WIDE ASLEEP, YAWNING AS I SHAKE HIM AWAKE HE LOOKS ME IN THE EYE AND HE SAYS NOTHING I'M DESPERATE I TRY TO EXPRESS THIS AND I END UP ASKING HIM QUESTIONS I SAY "HEY, WHAT GOES AROUND THE WORLD BUT STAYS IN THE CORNER?" AND I LAUGH HE LOOKS AWAY AND OPENS HIS MOUTH BUT SAYS NOTHING I CONTINUE I EXPLAIN THAT IT'S A RIDDLE AND THAT THE ANSWER IS A STAMP HE HAS NO REACTION SO I CONTINUE I EXPLAIN RIDDLES WITH JOKES AND JOKES WITH LAUGHTER I MAKE UP NEW RIDDLES BUT I NEGLECT MAKING UP ANY ANSWERS I TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED HE LOOKS INTERESTED BUT I KNOW THAT HE ISN'T WHETHER I'M HAPPY OR SAD HE DOESN'T KNOW THE DIFFERENCE HE CAN'T TELL WHEN I SHOW THE SYMPTOMS OF MY INTERNAL SOLAR SYSTEMS YET HE SEES THROUGH THE SMOKE AND THE MIRRORS HOPE AND FEAR ARE THE SAME EMOTION EXPRESSED IN DIFFERENT WAYS AND I STILL GO INTO SITUATIONS HOPING TO BE FEARLESS? HE SAYS NOTHING I CONTINUE I SAY "YOU'RE LIKE ME, I GET YOU! YOU DON'T HAVE TO SAY ANYTHING!" SO HE SAYS NOTHING I CONTINUE I STUMBLE OVER SENTENCES NERVOUSLY EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT THERE'S NO REASON FOR ME TO DO IT ENDLESSLY I POP UP TO MY KNEES LOOKING DOWN TAPPING OUT RHYTHMS WITH MY FINGERS AGAINST MY THUMB BECAUSE I FEEL RESTLESS I TELL HIM I WANNA END IT I SAY THAT I'M SICK OF TRAVELING BETWEEN ROOMS TALKING TO STATUES THAT NEVER TALK BACK TO ME MOVE AGAIN OR LOSE MY HEAD I NEED TO INVESTIGATE WHO I AM HE SAYS NOTHING BUT I EXPECTED THAT HE YAWNS AS HE STANDS AND HE WALKS PAST ME TO EAT HE STOPS AND HE LOOKS BACK AT ME HE LICKS HIS PAWS WE FADE BACK FROM THE EDGE OF THE MAIN MAP I'M DREAMING I WOKE UP FROM A GREAT NAP, BUT REALLY I WOKE UP IN THE BASEMENT THE CONCRETE NUMBED MY FACE I'M WIDE AWAKE, SMOKING ON THE PORCH IN SEVEN MINUTES PHONE LIGHTS UP LIKE A TORCH WITH SEVEN DIGITS THE TYPE THAT YOU DON'T SAVE AS IF YOU DON'T KNOW THE NAME ATTACHED SHE ASKED IF I'D BE IN TOWN IN A COUPLE OF DAYS I SAID I BEEN BACK FOR A MONTH, BUT OKAY, YEA SHE SAID "SORRY, YOU KNOW THE WAY THAT I AM" I SAY "YEA" SHE SAID "YOU ALREADY MADE PLANS?" I TOLD HER "NAH, I'M HERE FOR NO REASON LIKE BILL MURRAY IN SPACE JAM PLAYING FOR THE TOON SQUAD TO SAVE THE PLANET, SO YEA" SHE SAID LOL AND ASKED ME WHY I'M PLAYIN I SAID "DO YOU REMEMBER WHO YOU'RE TEXTING? DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM? WERE YOU TOO DRUNK TO DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN THE J AND THE REST OF THOSE OTHER STUPID LETTERS NEAR IT? AIN'T YOU MEAN TO TEXT YOUR MAIN MAN?" SHE AIN'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO THAT SO SHE SAYS "HAHA" SENDS A PICTURE OF HER BEST FACE THAT'S SAD CAPTIONED IT "I MISS YOU" AND I LAUGHED SENT A PICTURE OF THE NIGHT SKY BACK TO HER LIKE "HEY, WOULD YOU LOOK AT THAT?" SHE SAID "LOOK AT WHAT?" I TOLD HER "COUNT THE STARS" SHE SAID "THERE'S LIKE A HUNDRED OF EM SO THAT'S KINDA HARD I SAID THERE'S ONE FOR EVERY TIME I'VE HEARD YOUR LINES BEFORE AND I DON'T MIND AFFECTION BUT MY QUESTIONS WHAT YOU LYIN FOR? SHE SENT ??? BACK I SIGHED AND RESIGNED BACK TO MY REGULAR PATH, LIKE NEVERMIND WHAT ARE YOU DOING? SHE SAID "NOTHING, YOU WANNA HANG?" I JUST SAID "YEA"

LETS TAKE IT BACK TO WHAT WE STARTED FOR WHEN RAP WAS MY ATTEMPT TO BREACH YOUR HEART & SOUL LANGUAGE WAS INVENTED AS A TOOL FOR WOOING WOMEN AND I'M CRUISING OUTERSPACE FOR A LADY WITH A BASS LIKE HARUKO AND I DON'T CARE HOW FAR WE GO WAIT BUT THIS ISN'T OUTER SPACE, IT'S A CARNIVAL THAT"S NOT A CONSTELLATION IT'S A FERRIS WHEEL THAT HARDLY GOES THE ROAD'S NOT A RAINBOW THERE'S NO GO-KARTING MARIOS PEELING OFF BUT THERE'S A PARTY SO CELEBRATE FOR NO REASON YALL WE DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO GO AND WE'RE STILL FEELIN LOST HIDE IN MY EMOTIONS TIL I'M REALLY GONE KILL ME OFF ONLY 4 MORE EPISODES TO DO IT ALL AND MOVE ALONG I NEVER PROMISED TO DO IT LONG IT JUST ENDS WHEN IT ENDS LIKE A GURU SONG I ONLY SAID WHAT I SAID BECAUSE I'M FOOLISH BUT I'M COOL, AND EXCLUSIVELY TELL THE TRUTH SO YOU WON'T PROVE ME WRONG HOW'D WE GET SO LOST? WE RUINED IT ALL, GIRL FOR WHAT? FOR NOTHING, THIS IS AWFUL IT'S ALL WRONG AND I'VE FELT SO LOST SINCE YOU'VE BEEN GONE I FEEL FOOLISH WHEN THAT BASS GUITAR HUMS KEEP MY GUARD UP I'M LAYING IN BED BUT I'M NOT SLEEPING I'M CRAVING AFFECTION BUT NOT REALLY I'M NON-FEELING I'VE GOT REASONS I'VE GOT DEMONS I SEEK ANGELS WEIRD DOWN TO EARTH GIRL LIKE MAMIMI I GUESS I'M INTO THAT LET ME SWING THE BAT LET ME PUT SOME DISTANCE BETWEEN US ALRIGHT, BRING IT BACK THE HATCHES ARE OPEN, BABY GET INSIDE HITCH A RIDE TAKE A SPACE TRIP WITH YOUR GUY TO A DIFFERENT SIDE I'M THE CAPTAIN OF THE SHIP, SEE MY OFFICIAL TIE? HAT & EYEPATCH, NO MISSING EYE? LISTEN, I KNOW IT'S AN INTIMIDATING MISSION BUT I'VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR A MINUTE, I'M STILL ALIVE IT'S APPARENTLY FINE ONCE YOU LEARN TO SURVIVE OFF-MAP ON AN INFINITE LOOP BACK TO THE FIRST LINE WHAT WE STARTED FOR THE HEART & SOUL THE ENDLESS SEARCH FOR HARUKOS FOOLISH LOVING CONVERSATIONS LETHARGIC POEMS