I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU WAY TOO MUCH I GOT PROBLEMS OPENIN UP UNLESS I MAKE IT RHYME WHILE SMOKIN ON THE POTENT TO FOCUS AND HONE MY TOTAL LACK OF MOTIVE INTO SOMETHING THAT SUCKS WORD UP 22 WITH SO MUCH FUCKIN WISDOM BUT TOO STUPID TO USE IT SO THIS IS SOMETHIN DIFFERENT THIS IS SOME THINGS THAT I BEEN THINKIN BOUT THE PLACE I BEEN IN BITTERSWEET MOVE TO A GREAT HOUSE CAUSE YOU AIN'T IN IT I GUESS I'M DUMB CAUSE I JUST THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MEANT TO BE I NEVER THOUGHT THAT YOU WOULD SEE ME AS AN ENEMY IT'S GOT ME FUCKED UP CAUSE I JUST WANT YOU TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME AND WHEN YOU LEFT I GODDAMN NEARLY ENDED ME LITERALLY BUT WHATEVER THERE I GO THINKING ABOUT YOU AGAIN BUT I WON'T GIVE YOU THIS SONG, YOU GOT ENOUGH OF THE REST SO THAT'S THE END OF THAT LET'S RAP UP OTHER STUFF IN MY HEAD PANIC ATTACKS, LACK OF SLEEP 10:16AM ALL I DO THESE DAYS IS LAY IN THE BED SINCE A YOUNGIN BEEN A CHARACTER ALWAYS FAKED WHO I AM IT'S JUST WALLS ON ALL SIDES TO HIDE ME I'M BOXED IN TRYNA BREAK OUT MAKIN EFFORTS AT HONESTY HERE'S WHO I AM MY NAME'S JOEY, BORN JUNE 30TH, 92 WAS ONLY A COUPLE POUNDS AT BIRTH, YOU COULD SAY I KINDA GREW I WAS THE SHIEST DUDE CAREFUL AND QUIET TOO AFRAID TO SPEAK OR SHOW EMOTION QUICK TO LIE TO YOU SEE I WAS RAISED UP IN THE HMD WHERE YOU MIGHT GET YOUR BIKE TOOK BUT IT AIN'T THEM STREETS WHERE THE ONLY CONVERSATIONS' BASED ON THE DAY THEY CAN LEAVE IT'S DUMB BUT I KINDA LOVE IT YOU CAN'T TAKE IT FROM ME I USED TO TURN MY BACK ON FAMILY TRYNA GIVE ME HUGS I NEVER UNDERSTOOD AFFECTION WASN'T GIVEN NONE WASN'T GIVIN NONE WOULND'T GIVE IT UP THAT TALL GIRL WHO LIKED HORSES TOUCHED ME I COULDN'T GET IT UP ON A FERRIS WHEEL, SUMMER OF SEVENTH GRADE WHY'D I BRIND THAT UP? I HOPE THESE THINGS ADD UP BUT THINGS JUST HAPPEN, I GUESS I ONLY GET MORE SCATTERBRAINED WHEN I'M STRESSED NOW WATCH ME FADE AWAY THIS USELESS STAIN OF WASTE WITH NO CHANCE TO CHANGE EVERYTHING COMES IN SHADES OF GREY FOR 8TH GRADE I HAD TO LEAVE MY SCHOOL I RECENTLY BECAME AN ATHEIST I DIDN'T CARE, BUT THEY DID THE ONLY REASON I'M SAYIN IT I NEVER FELT THE PRESENCE OF GOD I WASN'T FOR PRAYIN AND THE DAY THEY TOLD ME BEING GAY WAS A SIN I WASN'T OKAY WITH IT SO I BOUNCED OUT WENT TO A PUBLIC SCHOOL THEN I SUDDENLY FOUND OUT EVERYBODY'S BUDDY BUDDY AS LONG AS IT BENEFITS THEM BUT YOU CAN'T FIND EM THE TIMES YOU ACTUALLY DOWN & OUT AROUND THAT TIME I STARTED WRITIN DOWN THE THINGS I FELT HID THE PAGES IN A BOOK HIDDEN AMIDST MY SHELF HIDDEN WRITTENS I WAS ASHAMED OF HIDDEN WITHIN MYSELF CAUSE I'M TOO SCARED TO TELL MY FRIENDS I WANNA KILL MYSELF POST-HIGH SCHOOL I FELL OFF THE GRID I COULD PROBABLY COUNT MY FRIENDS OUT WITH THE BACK OF MY FIST COUPLE YEARS I SAT BACK JUST STACKING MY CHIPS JUST TO SPILL EM ALL CAUSE I CAN'T HANDLE MY SHIT BUT I HAD SOME GOOD TIMES IN BETWEEN, AND I MADE SOME ENEMIES I WAS GOIN TO COLLEGE PLAYIN CONVENTIONS AND ACTIN LIKE SHIT'S MY DESTINY I MET A GIRL WHO AMAZINGLY CARED LESS THAN ME BUT I WAS TRYIN NOT TO MENTION IT HERE'S THREE THINGS, YOU GET TO TAKE TWO A GOOD TEAM MONEY AND A PARTNER THAT'S FAITHFUL I STILL AIN'T REALLY TOLD YOU MUCH BOUT MYSELF BUT WHEN I DIE I'M CAUSIN A RUCKUS IN HELL UNTIL THE DEVIL'S SO FED UP HE SENDS ME SOMEWHERE ELSE FUCK IT THE DEVIL'S THE GOVERNMENT DON'T LISTEN TO WHAT THEY TELL YOU NEVER BELIEVE A WORD, IT'S ALL LIES THAT'S MY POLICY IT USED TO BE PESSIMISM BUT NOW IT'S JUST HONESTY I ALREADY PROVED THAT I CAN RHYME, I DON'T WANNA RHYME NO MORE ZENKAI'S MY DARE IZ A DARKSIDE COME FOLLOW ME HOME THEY ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU'RE BETTER ONCE YOU'RE DEAD SO I'LL PROBABLY BE AT MY BEST WHEN I'M GONE

WHATEVER IT TAKES DICE GAME VENDETTAS, ASS BETTORS AND LAMES JAY TO THE Z, AIN'T HOV BUT I'M KNOWN FOR REPEATING MY NAME PLEASE ALLOW ME TO SAY IT AGAIN (JOEY Z!!!) GODDAMNIT, RAP'S STUPID, DON'T DO IT STAND MOTIONLESS, NO MOVEMENT THROW UP AND THAT'S DOPE MUSIC JUST SMOKE CAUSE IT'S ALL RUINED OR CHOKE ON YOUR OWN FLUIDS I'M GOIN DOWN I INTEND ON DOIN IT HENDRIXLY HORRENDOUSLY, WITH MONIKA DANNEMANN LAYIN NEXT TO ME 1970, IN KENSINGTON, REMEMBER ME BASEDGOD, BASEDGOD'S A VERY CLOSE FRIEND TO ME LIL B THE WEED MAN CALL HIM FOR THE REMEDY ADDERALL AMPHETAMINES BRINGING OUT THE BEST OF ME GIRL I'M FEELIN WILD TONIGHT, COME AND BE DEPRESSED WITH ME I DON'T GET HIGH, I JUST LEVEL OUT MY NORM RESIDES AROUND AS HIGH AS WHISTLES OUT THE KETTLE SPOUT CALL YOUR BEST UP, SEND EM OUT I'M TRYNA TEST MY STRENGTH ON LIVE BAIT, DOG, PROTECT YOUR MOUTH BEST BLOCK YOUR CHOMPERS FORE I KNOCK EM OUT BOPPED IN YOUR BABBLEBOX FOR WHAT THE FUCK YOU TALKIN BOUT DAMN I'M LIVIN BY THE STRENGTH OFF THE ZENKAI CAUSE IF I WAS GONNA FUCKIN DIE I WOULDA BEEN DIED I ALWAYS SAID IF YOU DON'T HAVE REGRETS YOU AREN'T DOIN ENOUGH BUT WHAT ABOUT WHEN YOU DID TOO MUCH AND YOU FUCKED IT ALL UP? NOW I'M STANDIN AND SHAKIN WITH MY FISTS BALLED UP DOIN MY BEST IMPRESSION OF CHILL WHILE TRYNA FORGET Y'ALL SUCK UGH MY LIFE'S DUMB, I LOST THE LOVE OF IT NOW I'M ALL FUCKED UP AND WONDERING IF I CAN EVER LOVE OR TRUST AGAIN FUCK THIS SHIT, I DON'T WANNA RAP, I WANNA CUT MY WRISTS BUT BACK WHEN I WAS YOUNG I STOPPED & PROMISED NOT TO PICK IT UP AGAIN AND I DON'T BREAK MY FUCKIN PROMISES I TRY TO STAY POSITIVE WHATEVER IT TAKES EVEN IF I REGRET IT TIL THE END OF MY DAYS YOU'D THINK I'D HAVE MADE SOME PROGRESS ALL THIS TIME I'VE SPENT AWAKE BUT INSTEAD I WROTE SONGS TO DELETE EM THE NEXT DAY CAUSE SHIT GOT ME IN A MOOD WHERE EVERY MOVE'S A MISTAKE BUT LIFE'S A CHESS GAME YOU DIDN'T CHOOSE TO PLAY AND IT'S FATE A PAWN ON THE FRONTLINE, MY KNIGHTS THE ONLY L'S THAT I TAKE MOVES THAT I MAKE WITH ROOKS HAVE GOT YOU SHOOK FROM THE GATE BUT WE AIN'T PLAYIN, I'M TALKIN METAPHORS, LIKE LIFE IS THE SAME AND I'MA TAKE MY CHECK MATE NO MATTER THE MOVES THAT IT TAKES I'M HOPIN TO AT LEAST BE FIRST PERSON TO COME IN SECOND PLACE THEN GET DRUNK TO CELEBRATE THE DUB, RALPH AND WRECK THE PLACE CAUSE THAT'S THE BEST WAY TO END THE GAME SET THE SQUARES ABLAZE UNTIL IT MAKES THE PIECES SEEM LIKE THEY'RE ALL SET IN PLACE & THAT'S A DOUBLE ENTENDRE, BUT I DON'T GIVE A SHIT I ONLY POINT IT OUT CAUSE THAT'S HOW HOV TAUGHT ME TO DEAL WITH IT AWWWWW SHIT, I'M FEELIN IT GOT EM ON THE HOOKS LINES & SINGIN TIME TO REEL EM IN I'M ACTIN LIKE I'M IN CONTROL JUST CAUSE I'M AT THE STEERING WHEEL DOIN A BUCK 40 HYDROPLANIN, MAINTAININ, TRYNA HEAL MY SHIT BUT FUCK IT THO, IT ALL FEELS LIMITED IGNORING ALL THE VOICES YELLIN "KILL YOURSELF YOU IDIOT YOU'LL FUCK IT UP, YOU FUCKED IT UP, IT'S FUCKED UP, THIS IS IT GIVE UP ON YOUR MISSIONS, FUCKING DO IT, PUSSY, FINISH IT" JUST BREATHE, I AIN'T HEARIN IT I'M DANCIN WITH MY DEMONS & DEATH & MY LACK OF FEAR OF IT 52 CARDS, BARS, CARS, BROADS, DEAL WITH IT SHUFFLE UP THE DECK FLASH CARD FREESTYLE WHILE HE STEERS THE WHIP WITH A WEIRDO CHICK, ON SOME WEIRDO SHIT, EVER SINCE THE DOCTOR SAID "PUSH" BEEN THAT WEIRDO KID WORD TO RED MAN ROLLIN LIKE WHEN UNDERTAKER INCORPORATED THE DEAD MAN WHATEVER IT TAKES I'LL BREAK THE RECORD TRYNA SET MY SHIT STRAIGHT SO NOW IT'S SKIPPIN FUCK IT DETOTONATE I'M TRYNA BLOW SOME FUCKIN BRAINS, NAMELY MINE, ALL OVER THE PLACE Y'ALL KNOW IT'S THE J O E Y Z, NO HYPHEN PEOPLE ARE FUCKIN DUMB I GOTTA SPELL OUT HOW TO WRITE IT BUT I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HOW MY NAME IS WRITTEN Y'ALL CAN CALL ME YOUR HIGHNESS WHATEVER IT TAKES TO END THIS SHOUTS OUT TO THANOS RAGE SHOUTS OUT TO KENDRICK FOUND OUT THAT BETTER DAYS ARE ALL ABOUT PERSPECTIVE THE GENESIS OF A NEMESIS CHEST-DEEP IN DEPRESSION FUCK IT I'M GONNA DIE I JUST WANNA BE HOV BUT HOV STILL ALIVE SO