I STILL THINK ABOUT YOU WAY TOO MUCH
I GOT PROBLEMS OPENIN UP
UNLESS I MAKE IT RHYME WHILE SMOKIN ON THE POTENT TO FOCUS AND HONE MY TOTAL LACK OF MOTIVE INTO SOMETHING THAT SUCKS
WORD UP
22 WITH SO MUCH FUCKIN WISDOM
BUT TOO STUPID TO USE IT SO THIS IS SOMETHIN DIFFERENT
THIS IS SOME THINGS THAT I BEEN THINKIN BOUT THE PLACE I BEEN IN
BITTERSWEET MOVE TO A GREAT HOUSE CAUSE YOU AIN'T IN IT
I GUESS I'M DUMB CAUSE I JUST THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MEANT TO BE
I NEVER THOUGHT THAT YOU WOULD SEE ME AS AN ENEMY
IT'S GOT ME FUCKED UP CAUSE I JUST WANT YOU TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME
AND WHEN YOU LEFT I GODDAMN NEARLY ENDED ME
LITERALLY
BUT WHATEVER
THERE I GO THINKING ABOUT YOU AGAIN
BUT I WON'T GIVE YOU THIS SONG, YOU GOT ENOUGH OF THE REST
SO THAT'S THE END OF THAT
LET'S RAP UP OTHER STUFF IN MY HEAD
PANIC ATTACKS, LACK OF SLEEP
10:16AM
ALL I DO THESE DAYS IS LAY IN THE BED
SINCE A YOUNGIN BEEN A CHARACTER
ALWAYS FAKED WHO I AM
IT'S JUST WALLS ON ALL SIDES TO HIDE ME
I'M BOXED IN
TRYNA BREAK OUT
MAKIN EFFORTS AT HONESTY
HERE'S WHO I AM
MY NAME'S JOEY, BORN JUNE 30TH, 92
WAS ONLY A COUPLE POUNDS AT BIRTH, YOU COULD SAY I KINDA GREW
I WAS THE SHIEST DUDE
CAREFUL AND QUIET TOO
AFRAID TO SPEAK OR SHOW EMOTION
QUICK TO LIE TO YOU
SEE I WAS RAISED UP IN THE HMD
WHERE YOU MIGHT GET YOUR BIKE TOOK BUT IT AIN'T THEM STREETS
WHERE THE ONLY CONVERSATIONS' BASED ON THE DAY THEY CAN LEAVE
IT'S DUMB BUT I KINDA LOVE IT
YOU CAN'T TAKE IT FROM ME
I USED TO TURN MY BACK ON FAMILY TRYNA GIVE ME HUGS
I NEVER UNDERSTOOD AFFECTION
WASN'T GIVEN NONE
WASN'T GIVIN NONE
WOULND'T GIVE IT UP
THAT TALL GIRL WHO LIKED HORSES TOUCHED ME
I COULDN'T GET IT UP
ON A FERRIS WHEEL, SUMMER OF SEVENTH GRADE
WHY'D I BRIND THAT UP?
I HOPE THESE THINGS ADD UP
BUT THINGS JUST HAPPEN, I GUESS
I ONLY GET MORE SCATTERBRAINED WHEN I'M STRESSED

NOW WATCH ME FADE AWAY
THIS USELESS STAIN OF WASTE WITH NO CHANCE TO CHANGE
EVERYTHING COMES IN SHADES OF GREY

FOR 8TH GRADE I HAD TO LEAVE MY SCHOOL
I RECENTLY BECAME AN ATHEIST
I DIDN'T CARE, BUT THEY DID
THE ONLY REASON I'M SAYIN IT
I NEVER FELT THE PRESENCE OF GOD
I WASN'T FOR PRAYIN
AND THE DAY THEY TOLD ME BEING GAY WAS A SIN I WASN'T OKAY WITH IT
SO I BOUNCED OUT
WENT TO A PUBLIC SCHOOL THEN I SUDDENLY FOUND OUT
EVERYBODY'S BUDDY BUDDY AS LONG AS IT BENEFITS THEM
BUT YOU CAN'T FIND EM THE TIMES YOU ACTUALLY DOWN & OUT
AROUND THAT TIME I STARTED WRITIN DOWN THE THINGS I FELT
HID THE PAGES IN A BOOK HIDDEN AMIDST MY SHELF
HIDDEN WRITTENS I WAS ASHAMED OF HIDDEN WITHIN MYSELF
CAUSE I'M TOO SCARED TO TELL MY FRIENDS I WANNA KILL MYSELF
POST-HIGH SCHOOL I FELL OFF THE GRID
I COULD PROBABLY COUNT MY FRIENDS OUT WITH THE BACK OF MY FIST
COUPLE YEARS I SAT BACK JUST STACKING MY CHIPS
JUST TO SPILL EM ALL
CAUSE I CAN'T HANDLE MY SHIT
BUT I HAD SOME GOOD TIMES IN BETWEEN, AND I MADE SOME ENEMIES
I WAS GOIN TO COLLEGE
PLAYIN CONVENTIONS
AND ACTIN LIKE SHIT'S MY DESTINY
I MET A GIRL WHO AMAZINGLY CARED LESS THAN ME
BUT I WAS TRYIN NOT TO MENTION IT
HERE'S THREE THINGS, YOU GET TO TAKE TWO
A GOOD TEAM
MONEY
AND A PARTNER THAT'S FAITHFUL
I STILL AIN'T REALLY TOLD YOU MUCH BOUT MYSELF
BUT WHEN I DIE I'M CAUSIN A RUCKUS IN HELL
UNTIL THE DEVIL'S SO FED UP HE SENDS ME SOMEWHERE ELSE
FUCK IT
THE DEVIL'S THE GOVERNMENT
DON'T LISTEN TO WHAT THEY TELL YOU
NEVER BELIEVE A WORD, IT'S ALL LIES
THAT'S MY POLICY
IT USED TO BE PESSIMISM BUT NOW IT'S JUST HONESTY
I ALREADY PROVED THAT I CAN RHYME, I DON'T WANNA RHYME NO MORE
ZENKAI'S MY DARE IZ A DARKSIDE COME FOLLOW ME HOME
THEY ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU'RE BETTER ONCE YOU'RE DEAD
SO I'LL PROBABLY BE AT MY BEST WHEN I'M GONE